[For this year’s
Valentine’s
Day series, I decided to share some of my blog’s early Tribute
Posts on teachers I have loved. Leading up to a special weekend post on a
very special teacher!]
On five moments that helped get me
here.
I’ve thought a lot over the first
decade and a half of my career about just how communal any successful
individual’s professional trajectory, his or her career path, really is. Since
I’m about to make clear that I’m referring to myself, let me stress that by
“successful” I simply mean somebody who has found a satisfying and productive
and meaningful job, a way to do something that he loves and feels as if he can
do for the rest of his life happily and well. I certainly feel that way
about—and feel very lucky and blessed to have—my gig, and again have been
thinking recently about just how many people and contributions and steps have
contributed to my path here. And so, for today’s teaching tribute post, five
such people and one specific, seemingly small but far from insignificant,
moment in which each made such an impact for me:
1) Mr.
Hickerson and Bruce: My 8th grade English teacher, Mr. Hickerson,
runs a very close second to Mr. Heartwell as the most inspiring and impressive
teacher of my pre-college years. The whole of that year with him was hugely
meaningful for me, but if I had to highlight one moment, it’d be a couple classes
when he had us bring in and analyze songs of our choosing. My choice was Bruce’s
“The River,” then and now probably my favorite single song of Bruce’s, and
the resulting discussion, and especially my attempt to articulate why I read
the end of the song (and thus its whole arc and story and meaning) in the way
that I did, was a transformative moment for me for sure.
2) Ms.
Perkins and Tutoring: In my senior year of high school, I was one of five students
who were eligible for and chose to take a class in Multivariable Calculus.
Because it was such a small cohort, our young and very enthusiastic and cool
(in the best sense) teacher, Ms.
Perkins, made the class very much about our individual identities and
perspectives, including a creative assignment for which I made a Choose Your
Own Adventure math book that I still remember very fondly. But by far the most
meaningful feature was a unit in which each of us worked with one student from
a more remedial math class to help him or her pass a standardized test that
they needed in order to move to their next year’s class; I know I had tutored
before in one context or another, but I remember those couple of weeks, and
even particular choices of mine (that did work, that didn’t) and exchanges
between us, much more fully and specifically. My tutoree passed, and I don’t
think I had a prouder or happier moment in high school.
3) Jay,
John, and the Gauntlet: I’ll be the first to admit that I came into college in
general, and into the History and Literature program there specifically (a
program that usually started with sophomore year but that I had applied to
begin as a freshman because I felt so damn ready for it), feeling like I knew
what I was doing. Sure, I had things to learn, books to read, ideas to grapple
with, but the skills? I was good to go. Well, my year of Hist and Lit Sophomore
Tutorial, and specifically the incredibly challenging and rigorous and
oh-so-necessary feedback I got from my two tutors, Jay
Grossman and John McGreevy--now
professors of American literature at Northwestern and history at Notre Dame,
respectively—was exactly the corrective I needed. They fostered my ideas and
interests and passion but made very clear how far I had to go as a thinker and
reader and, especially, writer, and it’s difficult to overstate how much I’ve
carried those lessons forward, both in my own work and as teaching models.
4) Dr.
Caserio and the Red Pen: And lest it seem as if the lessons ended there, or in
college at all, I take you forward about six years, to a graduate class in
Narratology and Fiction that I took in Spring 2002 with Temple’s
then-department chair and resident taskmaster, Professor Robert Caserio.
Caserio believed in and practiced the Socratic method, meaning that every class
was a palm-sweating experience in being pushed and prodded and challenged and
strengthened. But even more meaningful, for me, were his incredibly detailed
and thoroughly rigorous comments on my papers—I couldn’t believe how much red
ink I saw when I got the first paper back, and almost none of those comments
comprised simply grammatical or stylistic responses; they were challenges to my
ideas and to my prose, to words or sentences that weren’t clear or specific or
sufficiently analytical, that needed more and better. They were also, and most
importantly, an investment of time and energy and intelligence to which I
couldn’t help but respond in kind.
5) Dr.
Crossley and a Chance: In the fall of 2004 I was teaching five sections of
first-year writing as an adjunct at two local universities, Boston University
(in the Writing Program there) and UMass Boston (in the English Department)
while finishing my dissertation and going on the job market for the first time.
My partner was working 100-hour weeks as a medical resident. And in mid-October
our Boston apartment was broken into and my laptop (which included
not-backed-up copies of my first dozen or so job letters and lots of other
similarly difficult to replace or replicate materials) was one of the items
stolen. All of which is just to say, by early November I was crazy busy and
stretched thin and perhaps, to coin a phrase, on the edge of a nervous
breakdown. And then the UMass Boston English Department Chair, Professor
Robert Crossley, asked me if I would be interested in teaching a literature
class (a survey entitled Six American Writers) in the coming spring. I’ll
probably never know what led him—as busy and stretched himself as any
department chair always is—to think of me for it, but I do know that that
spring course remains one of my best semesters ever, and that I can trace
literally double-digit specific influences and effects of my work in that class
on my continuing efforts as a teacher, scholar, and AmericanStudier.
Each clause of
that final sentence is really my point here. Who knows why opportunities come
our way, and whether it’s ultimately anything other than luck that brings us to
people and relationships and influences like these? Certainly we can and must
take advantage of them once they’re there, be open to their inspirations and
lessons and meanings, and carry them forward as fully and gratefully and
successfully as we can. But it also seems to me that we—and I mean we as
academics and scholars and teachers, but also we as Americans, we as
humans—have to acknowledge just how significant a truth it is that, yes, it
takes a village.
Next amazing teacher
tomorrow,
Ben
PS. Teachers to
whom you’d pay tribute? Other loves you’d share?
Old African Proverb: It takes a village to raise a child. You use that phrase with such matter-of-fact confidence, Dr. Railton... but have you stopped to consider the key and important fact that different children from the same village - or even from the same household - can grow up and wind up worlds apart on the inside? Using my life as one example: I can't think of anything I have ever done or could ever do that would be more important than what you're doing on a day to day basis which is educating others. From 1995 to 1999, I worked as an Advocate for the Central MA Area Office of Department of Mental Health in Worcester, and one of my primary responsibilities was to go out to different area college classrooms and teach students about Mental Illness. Do you have any idea how different that makes me as a person from my own biological brother and sister (my brother works as a nurse in a hospital in Chicago and my sister works as a successful businesswoman in New York City)? Do you have any idea how different that makes me feel from my acquaintances and friends I know and associate with now on a day to day basis? Sometimes I wish I expected less out of myself - I wish that I could live with the world the way it is now, and not have to try to heroically and single-handedly change it into something radically different and better for everyone... everyone excluding myself, that is. "It's only life, after all..." - Indigo Girls [Roland Gibson]
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment, Roland! I would say that your main point here lines up with mine--that I've gotten to this point through so many different moments and influences, as well as my own responses and perspective. We're each the sum total of all those things, and then we certainly have a responsibility of trying to pay it forward to others as you say (but still taking care of ourselves in the process!).
ReplyDeleteThanks,
Ben