[For this year’s
Valentine’s
Day series, I decided to share some of my blog’s early Tribute
Posts on teachers I have loved. Leading up to a special weekend post on a
very special teacher!]
On the great
teacher with whom I shared my first office and teaching experience.
I don’t know if there’s an exact equivalent in any other
advanced-degree-requiring profession, although I’m sure there are parallels:
the first time a med student gets to deliver a baby on an OB rotation, for
example. But then again, in that case there’s an actual doctor (or two)
standing close by, ready to step in if things start to get out of hand, making
the moment very explicitly instructional rather than professional. The same
seems likely to be the case the first time a law student goes into a courtroom
(as a summer intern, say), that he or she is doing so very clearly as a student
still, learning from another professional who is likewise present, mimicking
the responsibilities without quite taking them on yet. But the first time I
stepped into a classroom as a teacher—at least in my graduate English program
at Temple University, where we were the sole instructors of record for those
first (and all other) classes, not teaching assistants for nor linked to anybody
else—I was on my own, just me and those 22 first-semester first-year Writing I
students.
I’m not trying to compare the stakes there to those involved
in delivering (or even in participating in the delivery of) someone’s baby. But
still, those 22 kids looking at me on that September 2001 afternoon were
putting a key part of their first semester of college—and thus of much of the
rest of their life—in my hands; and I was only about five years older than
them, at the start of my second year of graduate school, with exactly zero
classroom teaching experience of any kind behind me. The class used a standard
syllabus for that first semester, and all of us who were teaching from it were
part of a weekly teaching practicum; but neither of those things had much of
anything to say about what we were to do on a daily basis, what would happen in
that classroom for that hour, how I could possibly earn the respect that those
22 students were absolutely willing to give me—and more exactly my ability to
teach them college writing—on faith. I’m sure I would have muddled my way
through, and I like to think that I’d have gotten things figured out one way or
another no matter what—but honestly, I don’t know how I could have survived those
initial experiences if it weren’t for Anderson 1143.
1143 was my office, my first office no less, one floor up
from the main English Department offices there at Temple. It didn’t have a
window, much less a magic portal of knowledge about teaching. But it did have
desks for myself and my friend and fellow first-time teacher Jeff
Renye, and together there we aired our confusions and worries, listened to
each other’s one-on-one conferences, tried to wrap our heads around discussion
leading and assignments and grading, figured it out little by little, week by
week, issue by issue, revelation by revelation. Jeff is likely to object,
‘cause he’s his own biggest critic when it comes to teaching (and much
else)—and that’s probably part of the reason why he was such a perfect
officemate, in this as in every other way, because he was never willing to
settle for doing a mediocre job without trying to figure out how to do it
better. But the great teachers aren’t just dedicated and committed (although
they are those things for sure), they’re also innovative, they think outside of
the boxes that they’re given (in a practicum, say), they figure out what’s
going to work for themselves and their subjects and their students and they
keep on figuring it out every class and every semester and every year. And
they’re deeply communal, willing always to talk about all of that with their
colleagues, to learn from each other as we struggle to get a bit better all the
time. And all of that defines 1143 in that first year just about perfectly.
I never got to
watch Jeff teach, although I won’t settle for that past tense because I hope
I’ll have the chance at some point. But I know for sure that I’ve talked to him
more than anybody else about teaching, not only in that crucial first semester
and year but in all the semesters and years since. We made it through that
first semester, did right by those students, created our own syllabi and
courses as we moved forward, made those classrooms our own. But, speaking for
myself anyway, my classes have always also included the best teachers I’ve
known and learned from, and so there’ll always be a lot of Anderson 1143 in
every classroom of mine.
Next amazing teacher
tomorrow,
Ben
PS. Teachers to
whom you’d pay tribute? Other loves you’d share?
I feel I can relate to what your saying about your teacher-friend Jeff being his own worst critic. There's no question in my mind that the work you and he do is incredibly demanding... but it could obviously never work without you and he demanding a lot from yourselves, which is something I try to do and improve on day to day, in my own way of course. [Roland Gibson]
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